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Life, Like what even anymore?

Sun, 22 Mar 2026 16:43:17 GMT

Well shit. I had a whole thing to post - and it's gone. ::sigh::

Basically, drive by post to say I'm still out here. Busy as usual, but I'm trying to make plans to be more efficient with my time including writing more. We'll see if things pan out! ::knock wood::

I've been bit by the Hucklerobby bug (The Pitt, Dennis Whitaker/Michael "Robby" Robinovich) so that's what I'm obsessing about right now. If I was writing as much as I'm reading right now, I'd be unstoppable. Wheee!

Happy Sunday, folks!

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TV Crap & Looking for an SGA picture

Mon, 23 Feb 2026 21:56:35 GMT

I have to say, we have an embarrasment of riches when it comes to TV shows right now. Sure, there are some good movies (Sinners was AMAZING), but what have I been spending most of my time appreciating? The hour-long drama (3 shows) and comedy (1 show) that just seems to get better with every episode.

First off, comedy. I've loved David Mitchell ever since he guest starred on '8 Out Of 10 Cats Does Countdown' (link goes to Youtube with full episodes - warning, they are spit-take hilarious at times!), and then on the UK version of 'Would I Lie To You.' Well color me surprised when Mitchell showed up in a new series called 'Ludwig' in 2024. I really loved it - it's got a great premise, and the comedy is just sublime. You wouldn't think a puzzle maker impersonating his twin brother who has disappeared amidst murder allegations would be funny, but it's got some of the best comedy writing out there!

Drama? I think by now everyone knows 'The Pitt'; we're mid season two right now, and everything about the series is amazing. But not only do we have that right now, but we have the third season of 'The Night Agent' and season two of 'Paradise' just dropped. I'm only caught up on The Pitt and Paradise, and with each episode I yell, scream, and cry with everything going on. Seriously, I had to STOP working this morning during parts of 'Paradise' it was that tense.

The Pitt is on HBO, The Night Agent is on Netflix, and Paradise is on Hulu. So much for having everything in one service! Anyway, if you get a chance, watch! I cannot recommend them more!

And now on to the SGA Picture part of the deal. So I wrote a quickie story for romancingmcshep about John Sheppard's ass (the fest goes until February 28th if you're interested!) and the whole story is based on a picture that NOBODY can find anymore. I KNOW! It's frustrating! Anyway, there's what I think is a "behind the scenes" shot of most likely S01E03 "Hide and Seek" or S01E05 "Suspicion" where it's focused on Joe Flanigan's butt. Like kinda blatantly. He's kneeling on the Gateroom floor over Rodney, I believe and you can see where his t-shirt is pulled up and the waistband of his BDUs are lower - showing some skin and some of his boxers. This is what I think the camera sees in that shot, as Sheppard is kneeling like that but I remember there being a whole lot more skin. Does anyone remember a BTS photo like this? SO FRUSTRATING that I can't find it when I know I've seen it a hundred times.

And with that, back to work!

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Another Sunday drive-by

Sun, 08 Feb 2026 23:38:49 GMT

First of all I wanted to say, BE CAREFUL OUT THERE! This flu is no joke. I haven't had it ::knock wood:: but my friend's mother just died 24 hours after her symptoms started. The flu shot didn't guess the correct strain, and so the strain caught on and has only gotten worse. Mask up if you have to be around people (ewww, people. gross!) or do what you need to protect yourself.

In other news, nothing much has changed here. We watched 'Sinners' and I have to say - it's worth all the hype. Work continues to be challenging, but still fun, so that's good. And Patrick remains retired, and constantly underfoot. I'm gonna get some writing done one of these days! I need to write a shortie fic for RomancingMcShep - and/or RomancingSGA if Parrish/Lorne yell louder than McShep. And I have the full chapter-by-chapter breakdown of my next book, so I've got to get to writing. I've decided I'm going to publish it on my 60th birthday. Having a firm date is going to help keep me honest!

Sunday-night scaries, then back to work tomorrow. Wheeeeee....

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Semi-Regular Drive-By

Sun, 25 Jan 2026 19:08:07 GMT

Well hello there! And welcome to another edition of, "Walter has a few minutes to breathe, so why not post an update?"

Good things:
Work has been pretty busy, and we've had some horrible days with technology failing us and such - but I got through them. I still love my job, even if there are the occasional putz-type people that insist on bugging me throughout the day. Yay.

But in much better news, my friend (that people who've been to the Stargate Conventions in Chicago back in the day might know) vecturist flew into Portland and we were able to catch up. It's like we don't get to see each other but every 5-10 years, but that's cool. We shared a wonderful meal in downtown Portland and caught up.

Stuff with Squidge is keeping me busy, like it normally does. But today I've got to get elderwitty and myself's taxes done for our joint venture (we're an LLC, and those have to produce tax documents by the end of January. Great!). While we haven't produced anything in a while, I'm actually about to undertake at least a trilogy of new books this year. All 3 books are rough-sketched, and the first book is about 50% done for chapter-by-chapter development. What's holding me back? There's a fake-dating/fake-marriage fest in the whatif_au community that's calling my name! That, and we've got romancingmcshep right around the corner; I'm going to try and write for both.

Not so good things:
My motivation is CRAP. UGH. The desire to produce new stories, new worlds, etc. is there. But the ability to put the work in to get it done? Meh at best.

Husband suggested that we watch Stargate: Universe together, because he only saw a few episodes, and while I'd never seen it, I'd made a little promise to actor Davie Blue back when he showed up at a Stargate Chicago con that I would watch it. And I mean we did - all of it - and I honestly couldn't find any redeeming qualities for it. Sure, there were some interesting stories, but they never wrote any of the characters to be likeable - everyone and everything was dark and angsty and filled with hate/rage.

Now we're watching Star Trek: Starfleet Academy, and I will say that it's interesting. Not my favorite, but not the "end of the world, gloom and doom" that some people are calling it. Honestly, I don't think I would ever play in the Star Trek or Star Wars fandom communities, because unlike Stargate and some other fandoms, Star Trek and Star Wars has supporters that take things just a wee bit too far. What I've seen on Bluesky (I'm walterh503 if anyone is interested) is that if you don't fit in the specific mold of what people consider to be "good Trek" or "Good Star Wars" umbrella, you're toast. I've seen people go so far as to urge people not to watch it. I'm not gonna do that. I'm not a gatekeeper, and I'm certainly not going to let a fandom gatekeeper tell me what to do.

You can like it or you can hate it - and I respect that. But don't tell others what to do based on your own Trek or Wars "purity" contest. Just don't.

Okay, enough rambling. I'm off to do taxes. Yay. ::sigh::

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Time Marches On

Thu, 01 Jan 2026 18:15:40 GMT

Welcome to 2026, people!

Last year was good, but challenging for me. My husband tended to make things a bit more difficult in both our lives and our relationship, but somehow in the last week he's cooled down and seems to be on at least a healthier path (at least mentally).

Not much other than that has changed. I'm still here, and gods willing, will continue to be here for a while. I'm making personal time - time for ME - a priority this year. Yes, even in the face of so many projects, it's gonna be done. I mean, if we don't put ourselves first, how can we be there for others?

Yes, just another rambling post, I know. Anyway, here's to an amazing year to come!

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UGH

Thu, 11 Dec 2025 23:03:29 GMT

I swear I love my job. But if I quit, it's not going to be because of anyone in the pharmacy that I work with. It's going to be the ancillary people - the racist clinical architect who demeans others to make himself feel better about himself. Or the petty patient accounts manager who, because of 3 pricing issues in 3 years, thinks "Pharmacy is a problem!"

::sigh::

I was really doing better this week, and then it's like everyone shit the bed and blamed me for it.

I'll be fine - I'm just venting. You'll probably see me venting/posting more on here as I've given up on any other kind of social media that's not DW/Discord. Why? Because THOSE people suck. We're cool, they suck.

Happy almost Friday (thank the gods).

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Beta Request

Sun, 07 Dec 2025 21:44:07 GMT

I've got a ~6,500 word McShep AU that I wrote for SGA Santa. Anyone got time for a beta? I've run it through Grammarly, but at this point am blind to any other issues. Needs to be completed by like December 20th so I can post it on time. Stargate Atlantis knowledge necessary, McShep and AU-appreciation would be welcome. Drop me a note and I'll update this post when the need has been filled.

Thanks, and here's to a wonderful holiday season to us all!

edit: Thank you - this is taken!!!

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::sigh::

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 20:37:58 GMT

There's an old saying of something like, "You can't please all the people all the time" - and oof, I feel that one today. Drama over on AO3 has bled its way over onto SquidgeWorld, and no attempt to balance user's right vs anti-everything people will ever result in anything except drama.

I've gotten my first "Go kill yourself" comment in a while. I'm surprised I haven't gotten, "Hey, look over at this Tumblr post where I call you an asshole!" hasn't started up yet. But the day is still young.

In other, less dramatic, news, I'm here! Last Sunday at this time I was in full panic because I had sudden dizzy spells (vertigo) that caused me to puke for three days, then left me with double vision. I went to the hospital and they were all "OMG YOU HAD A STROKE!" and put me on the stroke protocol for my entire 20 hour visit. And even though my CT scans and MRI came out compeltely clean, the neurologist insisted that I had a stroke. Physical Therapy came by and was going to do something called the Epley maneuver in case it was the crystals in my ear - but said that since it was "a stroke" etc., that I wasn't a good candidate for the maneuver.

I got discharged and came home, still with double vision. Rested the weekend, and went to work Monday like normal, but I had to have an eye patch to be able to work. After I got curious about the Epley maneuver, I decided to web search it, and found a video of how to perform it on yourself. So after work I went into the living room and tried it...and my double-vision went away.

I've done the maneuver a couple of times, and things seem to be getting better and better. I still have a small amount of dizziness, but it's decreasing the more time goes on. I'll probably Epley myself once or twice more, just to get everything settled.

So it's been a weird-ass last couple of weeks for me. But I'm glad things are getting back to normal - for relative values of normal.

Happy weekend!

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Kinktober Prompts

Mon, 29 Sep 2025 18:21:44 GMT

So while this isn't my thing, I got an email from an indie publishing company that focuses on queer storytelling, etc.. They recognize October as Kinktober, and published a list of daily prompts for use in "Fanfiction or whatever you want." Interested?

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Me? A Star Trek fan?

Sat, 13 Sep 2025 22:04:42 GMT

I was always a casual fan of Star Trek. TOS was good, and my sister being a massive fan basically introduced me to fandom culture. Then TNG came out when I was young and I enjoyed it. I watched Voyager and some DS9 and such, but nothing ever gripped me much.

Then came Star Trek: Lower Decks - and it had humor that I just loved. And midway through their run, Star Trek: Strange New Worlds started, and then there was the amazing crossover between the two shows. It did it with such ease that I could not help but love it. And I'd finally found in Star Trek what love for fandom I've had for Stargate Atlantis and very few other bits of media.

If you're not watching Strange New Worlds, I honestly thing you should. In this third season we had Episode 4 called "Space Adventure Hour" - in which people from The Enterprise basically told the story (without using specifics) about Desilu studios, and how a red-headed comedienne saves a low-budget Science Fiction television show in the early days of television. The casual person may not know this, but Lucille Ball is honestly almost solely responsible for saving Star Trek: TOS. I watched this episode with wonder; it's rare that you see something that's a love-letter to fandom.

And love-letters to fandom are sacred with me. Truly. I've tried my own love-letters to fandom, For due South, I wrote "Twenty Years Hence." For SGA, I wrote "What Could Have Been, What Might Become." And for Check, Please! I wrote "blink." This last story was special to me, because i wrote my love-letter to fandom around something that a person wrote about on Reddit (go read this, if you read nothing else); essentially it's living a lifetime, with all the wonder and memories and love in the blink of an eye.

Then there was this week's SNW finale. And I can say, without spoiling it, that elements of the Reddit story and my fic "blink" touch on. When I realized what was going on, I started bawling my eyes out. It was so, so well done.

I never really thought I would be a Star Trek fan - but the season finale of SNW solidified that for me this week.

That said, there have been some crazy things said about how SNW has "ruined" Star Trek - from the Lower Decks crossover to the musical episode to criticizing them writing characters being temporarily turned Vulcan. One person even said SNW is "an abomination."

You know what? Fuck that. Sorry - people are entitled to their own opinions, and that's fine. But I've found myself in a warm embrace of a show, and I'll never understand the people who try and drive a cold spike between the show and the viewers that love it.

Anyway, watch Star Trek: Strange New Worlds if you haven't. It's a wonder.

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Mucho Thanks!

Wed, 23 Jul 2025 22:48:25 GMT

I wanted to say thank you to everyone who spoke out about keeping my LiveJournal/what you've done with your LJ. The vast majority of people say to keep it, and I think that's what I'm going to do. I normally don't like to be a part of something when shit goes down (like seriously - I left Twitter after Musk did his bullshit, and I left TikTok when the US government said they were going to shut it down for privacy purposes). Not that there's anything going to go down, but you know what I mean.

I'll just leave my LJ out there for the time being.

If you're so inclined, I posted a "What should I do?" question to the CommunityActionUSA group. I still want to keep it, but I've been bad at finding the time to update once/twice/three times a week with issues to write elected officials about. So if you've got an opinion on that, I'd love to hear it. I left the post over here.

Happy Wednesday!

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LiveJournal - Honest question

Sun, 20 Jul 2025 15:56:09 GMT

I know LiveJournal is pretty much dead; I mean they moved all their servers back to Russia, and because of who they are and who owns them (Rambler Group), they're subject to sanctions - so you can't give LJ any money for your account without worldwide governments coming down on you.

So what are people doing with their LJ accounts? Are you just leaving it out there abandoned? Or have you deleted it? I know there are a couple of SGA communities that are truly only on LJ because they were never popular enough post Dreamwidth migration to move to DW, and there's the CommentFic community, but to me that's it. And when I think too much about LJ, my first thought is to just delete it. I still might, but I thought I'd see what others are doing.

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I'm still here!

Fri, 18 Jul 2025 14:42:52 GMT

I know I haven't posted in a while - but I'm still here. Work is consuming nearly all my spoons, and it's hard to do anything else when I'm not working besides regular housework and sitting on the couch watching TV or reading.

::sigh::

So much going on these days with work - too many projects, too many "What ifs", and definitely not enough time to deal with everything. It's why I haven't been here much, and why communityactionusa has kind of floundered. I haven't written a single letter to elected officials in a couple of weeks - and I wanted to make it a nightly habit. Dammit.

Okay, enough of my grumbling. It's Friday, I'mma go give blood this afternoon, and then start my weekend. Whoo!!!!

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PSA: Change Your Passwords NOW!

Thu, 19 Jun 2025 18:57:14 GMT

Huge leak of 16 billion passwords were announced today including Apple, Google, Netflix, and others. You should go change your passwords NOW! And pass this on to others as needed.

Link: https://hothardware.com/news/huge-data-breach-exposes-16-billion-apple-google-facebook-passwords-and-more

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Random Update is Random

Sun, 08 Jun 2025 22:33:32 GMT

Yep, another random update from me.

As I sit here, I can't hear out of my left ear because I have an inner ear infection. How do I know it's an inner ear infection? Because not only can I not hear, but my balance is shot to hell as well. Yeah. It's not fun sitting up in bed and then almost falling out of it because your head is swimming around, leaving you unable to do anything but wait for the world to stop spinning.

I have some leftover antibiotic ear drops, so I started using them today. We'll see how it goes overnight, or if I'm going to have to get my doctor to call in a prescription. Yay.

I finally figured out what I wanted to do with my CommunityActionUSA community here on DW - and it's to be an extension of Project Mailstorm. Project Mailstorm is something where you can send letters on the protest idea of your choice to members of Congress as well as the Orange Menace himself, plus his cabinet. The key for Project Mailstorm is to overwhelm TPTB with paper. Emails and voicemails can be deleted and/or ignored, especially if you have a MAGA Senator or Congressperson. But letters? No, they can gum up the works and being things to a crawl.

So I kind of reoganized the community and put my first "Call to Action" out. If you want to take part - that would be awesome. And if you could get the word out about the community so others can find it, that would be amazing as well.

And now it's time to go lay down.

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Coming Up Next!

Tue, 03 Jun 2025 20:17:26 GMT

So it's no secret that I have a love/hate relationship with Brad Wright; if the name sounds familiar it's because he's one of the people that produced and wrote Stargate SG1, Stargate Atlantis, and Travelers. But he also shit on the SGA fandom by moving on to Stargate: Universe (aka, SG:PU for those like me who got pissed at him) and letting SGA hang out to die.

The thing about Wright is that he does do some good stuff. I mean, I just started rewatching Travelers (and melagan - I may need you to hold my hand again because I'm coming up on the end of season 3, and you know I was a mess last time) and it made me wonder what's next for Wright. And IMDB told me this:

I mean, this sounds really interesting! Let's just see if it's cast well, and if they can bring the feels. Here's hoping!

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Bah

Thu, 29 May 2025 19:12:06 GMT

I'm more than 2 weeks post-op and went through my post-surgery appointment with flying colors. Everything's been going really well, and I even got permission to do everything from start running again to heavy yardwork and such.

So why the hell am I so emotionally fragile these days?

Seriously - I got pissed off at a coworker earlier today because I said I liked the band Creed and she turned her nose up at me. The dog went to sniff my crotch for the 97th time today, and I yelled at him to stop. And now I just responded to the wrong email and would like to resign from my job, please and thanks.

::sigh:: and also ::blah::

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Politics Post - Seeking Thoughts

Thu, 22 May 2025 22:35:18 GMT

So when I got riled up before my surgery, I made a new community on here called communityactionusa - so, you know, action that we in the US can take to make a difference while the Orange Menace burns the world around us.

But I don't know what to do with it.

Like, I could kind of make it like I run whenisitdue - a community that once or twice a week releases, "Here's what you can do now" posts or "Here are upcoming protests" but also with posts about "What to bring to a protest" and such. Or I can make out a few posts and just let people take from it what they will? Or just make it a centerpiece that everyone can post to with ideas and such? I dunno.

How I believe I have it set up now is only admins can post, but people can comment on anything. And if I'm gonna get it off the ground, I need to start filling out the placeholder posts with what's relevant, you know what I mean?

What do you think, fair reader? Or do you think there're anough places around that we don't need this?

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Ahh, recovery

Thu, 15 May 2025 18:12:12 GMT

Last night I slept pretty well - minimal pain, and the dog didn't try and climb on top of me or headbutt me in the side like he normally does. I know yesterday was just a blurr because they gave me midazolam (like a stronger valium) as well as the anesthesia (propofol - the stuff Michael Jackson abused for sleep). I didn't really have any issues, but those two drugs cause you to feel spacy and not really comprehend anything or remember anything for a few hours. I'd say it was like 5pm before I was truly myself again.

Today I've pretty much just sat on the couch, caught up on email and updated my whenisitdue community, and decided I deserved a little treat so I watched one of my comfort movies that I haven't seen in a while. Guess what it is (answer in the ALT text). EDIT: Apparently ALT text doesn't work on DW? The movie is Vibes (1989 or such)

The one big change that I've noticed between this surgery and my previous surgeries is that they are very, very careful with opiates. I think last time I got like 30 Vicodin with 2 refills. This time? They gave me the stronger oxycodone but at a weaker strength (5mg) and only gave me 12 total. They teach you how to take alternating Tylenol and Ibuprofen for pain. If you're interested, it's 1000mg Tylenol every 8 hours and 800mg ibuprofen every 8 hours, though I have been doing it every 6 hours. They cover their butts on the Tylenol to only 3gm (3000mg) total per day, but you can take up to 4gm per day. But you take them opposite each other. So for me on the every 6 hours, it's:

6am: 1gm Tylenol
9am: 800mg ibuprofen
12pm: 1gm Tylenol
3pm: 800mg ibuprofen
6pm: 1gm Tylenol
9pm: 800mg ibuprofen
12Midnight: 1gm Tylenol
3am: 800mg ibuprofen

See, that way, you have full coverage and are never on the ebb of a dose - you're always at a peak. But you can do this with Tylenol and either ibuprofen or Tylenol and Naproxen - not ibupforen and Naproxen or Aspirin as these are all three what's called NSAIDs. And you can only do it for like a maximum 5 days without tearing up your stomach.

I can't believe this is the last day of 3 Weeks for Dreamwidth! This has gotten me to post quite a bit more, and I'm gonna try to post at least a couple of weeks from here on out.

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Surgery Update!

Wed, 14 May 2025 18:15:48 GMT

Surgery was a success! Had TWO inguinal hernias to repair. Boo is picking up my scripts plus some comfort foodstuffs so I'm going home after he's done we get home it's take meds and pass out. Right now I'm falling asleep in the car

Thank you everyone for the good vibes!

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Umm, WUT?

Wed, 14 May 2025 00:57:40 GMT

Got the call from the nurse in preparation for my surgery - and nobody can figure out one of their requests. So they told me that I'm NPO (nothing by mouth, not even water) as of midnight, but I can take my meds with a sip of water in the morning. I'll do that. They told me that when I show up I need to bring three things - my ID, my insurance information, and my mobile phone.

Mobile phone? Wut?

I thought about it and then called the surgery clinic and asked them. That nurse's response? "Your PHONE? Why? Why would they ask you to bring your phone?" It's not like they don't have phones at the hospital where I'm having my surgery. The only thing that we can think of is that people today don't remember phone number like they did back in my day (like my home phone when I was seven years old was 354-7477 - who doesn't remember phone numbers??!?!) so instaed of having to ask a groggy patient their ride's phone number, they can just use speed dial.

Not too nervous - I guess whatever happens happens. I'm just thinking good thoughts. And tomorrow morning at 7:30amish Pacific time when my surgery is scheduled, if you want to think good thoughts, I'd appreciate it!

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Well now...

Mon, 12 May 2025 22:10:54 GMT

Back to work today, and it was a shitshow. But at least I only have one more day of work. Why? Because I'm going to have surgery Wednesday morning. Wheeee!

This sounds bad, but I'm looking forward to actually having 3 days of work off, with 5 days off total. I haven't done that since last year when I went to Squee, but even then I didn't sleep enough. While I didn't work, I was around ALL MY FRIENDS and "but mom, I don't WANNA go to sleep!" So you know how it goes... I even showed up one night in my pajamas.

Sleep... SLEEEP!!!!

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How many days is this?

Sun, 11 May 2025 22:02:17 GMT

I'm actually doing much better with the daily posting, with nods to Three Weeks for Dreamwidth. I'm kinda surprised, actually.

So I was exhausted last night, and kinda grumpy because of said lost glasses. I passed out at 8pmish, and was sleeping soundly until at midnight, our alarm system loudly announced, "Laundry Room Window Open."

WTAF? If someone was breaking in the house, there would be easier windows to break in through, but I digress. Anyway, I missed the "Laundry Room" part of the announcement, but was wide awake for the "Window Open" part of the deal, and went from dead to the world to "nearly OD'd on NoDoz" in half a second. I'm good in an emergency, Boo is not. We listened for a minute for any noises, and then I got on my robe, grabbed my baseball bat that I keep next to the bed, and started prowling through the house - to find nothing. And I peeked everywhere. Anyway, I went to the alarm system (which we don't typically set at night) and went through the menus and even though it said that the laundry room window was open, it was indeed shut.

Like WTF technology?

Anyway, after another prowl, I put everything back and climbed into bed and read until the adrenalin wore off.

The good part of the day is, I suddenly had a brilliant recall of my exact steps that I'd taken 2 days before when I got home. I knew Ralphie was going to attack me with kisses, so when I knelt down, apparently I put my glasses on the floor of the foyer under the curtain - and that's where they remained. How Patrick and I walked past them multiple times, I have no idea. But huzzah, no having to buy new glasses!

As for complete restful sleep, I'm probably going to have to "catch up" on sleep (for whatever values of "catch up" are even possible) after my surgery on Wednesday. I'm sure the narcotics will help with that. ::grin::

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Good news, bad news

Sat, 10 May 2025 21:23:45 GMT

Well, I got home last night - that's the good news. Lyft kind of screwed me over - they said my car would be there in 3 minutes, but I could upgrade to a 1 minute wait for $10 which I declined. Then their apprefreshed and said, "Your car will be there in 12 minutes." That was such complete bullshit! I'm sure there's going to be a massive lawsuit about that one some day in the near future.

Bad news is, now that I'm home I can't find my glasses. Normally I don't need them much; really just for some distance (my vision is like 20/80 or somethng like that) but they're just GONE. And I'm probably going to have to pay another $300 to get another pair. That on top of the $3000 out of pocket that I've got coming up for my surgery is just great...

Now that I'm home I'm de-stressed and feeling better; I totally missed being home. But I do feel like I need to sleep for three days to catch up. It's kinda that "I feel like I've been beat with a 2x4" feeling on top of crappy sinuses that's throwing me for a loop.

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When it rains...

Sat, 10 May 2025 02:54:28 GMT

Buckle up. It's gonna be a bumpy ride. And this may be a little TMI/discussion of sexuality so I'm gonna hide it behind the cut just in case.

So I know some time ago I mentioned having my very first lucid dream and just how cool it was. Long story short, I was dreaming when I was suddenly quite aware of what was going on, and that I was asleep and in a dream and that I was able to control it - to an extent. And in that same post, I confessed that (TMI for some) have never had a sex dream in my life. It has never really happened. I mean once, I had a guy reach over and grab my leg in a dream with the intention of going further, but nothing ever happened.

Well, in said lucid dream, the first thing I did was grab the nearest guy and kissed him within an inch of his life. I was so elated, but didn't want to press it so I just let the dream take its natural course.

And then we come to last night. Or, really, this morning. I'd fallen asleep but woken up at like 2am, and tossed & turned (crappy, crappy hotel) but finally fell back asleep by 3:30am. And as soon as i did, I started lucid dreaming. Like a LOT of lucid dreaming. But even further, when I wasn't pushing my limits and mostly letting the dreams take me where they wanted, something must have snapped. Because suddenly I was having full on sexy-time dreams. Hedonistic, anything goes sex dreams.

I would wake up from the dream, go, "What the actual FUCK?" and then fall back asleep - right back into another sexy-times lucid dream.

After about 7 or 8 dreams - including what I can only describe as a "meta" dream where I dreamt about dreaming (yeah, some weird-ass Inception shit) I my alarm went off. I didn't want to press my luck, so I got out of bed, put on Lonely Island's "I Just Had Sex" on iTunes, and got ready for the day.

Yeah, i don't get it. Not one bit. But I'm not complaining, either!

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